Just a thought

This is my first real post. So I just want to prepare you, in a way, I guess.

I’m not a formulaic writer. I would never get so far of ahead to even call myself a writer, but its what I’m doing at the moment so let’s stick with it.

I think of myself as just a guy who thinks about some stuff. By no means do I think I’m the only one who thinks like this, but maybe one of a few who actually writes about it.

What do I mean by, “stuff”, exactly? Well, things that are all around us but we barely pay attention to.  I’ll give you an example; have you ever taken a good long second and just looked at someone and tried to think about what’s going on in their head? What they’re thinking, how they’re reacting to situations, why they’re reacting certain ways. Even just to acknowledge the simple fact that we will never know exactly how that person thinks about anything, even though they could try and articulate it to us the best they can.

It’s the, “how do I know the colour blue you see is the same as the blue I see?” situation…

I find myself wondering about things like this more and more often. Now it’s either completely insane and a waste of time, or something I can just take comfort in that it calms me down.

Other times it completely freaks me out.

Hopefully I can spit out some of these thoughts in a language people can understand in the future so I’m not completely wasting my time writing it.

In the meantime, this will remain my sounding board. Unedited, unplanned. It’ll be a messy ride but those are usually the most fun.

Why do I want to write?

Well, this is my 14th attempt at starting to write. Anything. I’ve had so much running through my head that I don’t know when to stop and say, “oh, THAT’s something!”, or not. So I had a sudden and, if I do say so myself, a ground-breaking idea; write what you feel.

Amazing, isn’t it?

I've always felt that this is what I wanted to do but everything around me screams the opposite. Do it this way, do it that way, follow the proven formulas. Well to be honest, that’s never worked for me.

Not to say I’m the rebel I think I want to be, but I’ve just always questioned things, (to myself). After all, these are the precise methods that are followed by those who have achieved greatness. At least greatness in my mind. The inspirational people and artists that have gone on to live throughout history are all people who have gone against the man, the grain, and dug their own trenches. We all know who these people are. 

So, what do I want to get out of writing? Clarity. Clarity in my head, in my soul, in my future, in my writing itself. In every great statue, there has been much marble cast aside as shavings and chippings, but it is only through this process that beauty can be witnessed and go on to live forever. 

So chip away.